Hello

For the past two days since it was released, I've been listening to Adele's Hello non-stop. At home, in the car, and even at the gym. So, I think it's only fitting to start off this blog with:

Hello, 

It's me. 

I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet to go over 

everything.

Why start again? 

I haven't regularly blogged since college, where I mostly did it to save and share pictures and to recap the day to my friends. 

My life has changed drastically since then. New friends, new house, new job, new life. 

This time, I have a more personal reason to write- me. No one knows about this blog and I have no one to write for except for myself. 

I'm finding that it's increasingly harder to talk to even my closest friends, for fears that I'm just coming off too needy, too insecure, too.. much that'll just eventually push them away. I fear that after all these years, we've grown too used to each other, too closed off because we know each other like the back of our hands. 

I've let my borders down too much, opened myself so nakedly, that I have become a parody of myself to my best friends. So, I need to find balance again.

I'm writing because I need a place to work through things, think things through, and just voice the nagging doubts in my head. A safe place. Myself. 

A space to be dumb, naive, way too happy, and sometimes, oh sometimes, pathetic and irrational. And to remember the great times and the bad. 

So....

Hello,

Can you hear me?

I'm in California dreaming about who [I] used to be.